Here we go again...
7:19 p.m. 2002-10-17
Here we go again.
Single agian.
I was in relationship for almost two years until today.
It wasn't a bad break up... well... not that it was good. I'm still sad and I still love her dearly with all my heart.
I wish there was some sort of fast forward button on my life.
Actually, according to my friend RC, there is... it's called friends.
So I'm going to try to spend ALOT more time with friends. Somewhat excited about that.
I still miss her. I still love her. But in a way I feel that this is good and in a right direction. But I somewhat don't want to let go.
The two years was a good run.
but I can't help but still feel empty inside. She was the best thing that happened to me. If only we met under different circumstances.
Well... I don't know where this will take me, but I'll be fine. I can't seem to really write well right now.
I have so many thoughts so many feelings so many... experiances.
Her and me will try to be friends. It's the best way. Maybe... we'll... get back togehter...
maybe not.
"If it was meant to be, it was meant to be" I'm going to be hearing that alot. But I can't shake the feeling of rejection off of me. The sadness, the loneliness that has been placed in my heart.
I still have a little bit of faith.
I used to beleive in destiny... it was how Karen and I met. It's an intresting story... I'll tell you about it some time.
So many things to say...
so many feelings to express...
so many... sadness?
I still love her.
But let me focus on my self for a moment...
Currently reading
Stephen King's DreamCatchter
reading list
John Saul's Blackstone ChroniclesSharon Green's Blending of Enthroned, books one and two
Lynda Field's Creating Self-Esteem
Steve Erickson's Amnesiascope
Eric Lau's Accidental Asian
I Am Jackie Chan
Stephen Covey's 7 Habits of Highly Effective People
Parnel Hall's A Clue for the Puzzle Lady
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